Finally the body’s yearning over
Breaths deep and slow
Muscles lose knots of tension
Heart’s a revved up engine
In this solitary quest for calm
Amid tempestuous times
Peace-loving souls must rest
Against all odds
If they are to last
Until the last stretch.
Finally was able to try surfing–the real stuff–at no less than the famed Cloud 9 of Siargao. Feeling was liberating riding waves except that I had great diffficulty maneuvering the board with my feet. Hoping another opportunity to surf presents itself again in the near future. Balancing with the board is not that easy to achieve.
Just like my life now. Different priorities and opportunities. Just hoping everything will turn out well for me in the end.
Still waters blue and green in the horizon
Waves sleep as the mind unfolds
Goes on and on
Too stressed out to sleep deep and have a dream for a very long time already.
Lately, I’ve had two dreams.
Last week: Trying to get off an airplane about to crash and burn. I wonder how I managed to escape…
Last night: Taking a train to HongKong, wondering why I left my Hon, and clicking the shutter button of my camera without an image being developed. This was a dream that was sooo real. Upon waking up, I instantly figured that the strange train bound to HK doesn’t exist, that I have plans of going there with my Hon but it’s impossible that I wouldn’t tag her along with me, and my camera had charged battery but why wouldn’t it work..
One in black and white, the other in vivid colors. Don’t know what’s with color and dreams; but I think both images of transport–plane and train–signify my journey in life. Just hoping and praying that I am traveling in the right direction.
Countdown to the biggest day of our lives starts today. 365 days from now, a new life begins. Feeling is both tense and exhilarating. 12+ long years of being together, one special day, and an infinite forever…
Come hell or high water
We will be there
No sound of thunder
Will deafen our ear
No fury of wind
Will bend our will.
From the fires of the earth
We will not falter
To the motions down under
We will not quiver.
Be it from High Above
Or brought by men of might
Devoid of heart for humanity
We will deliver.
To serve the affected,
The frail and vulnerable,
In hinterlands and far seas,
To where our hands can reach.
Amidst the clouds of dark
We will see the light.
We will conquer.
We will win
Seizing opportunity in
Every adversity
All for His glory.
Sometimes spontaneity brings out
the best in us
Jitters, pounding heart, racing thoughts
make us look smart, composed
when we talk, reason, make excuses
despite the turmoil growing inside
of us hiding the ugly essentials
those which are truly invisible to prying eyes.
Some things you wait for
but don’t come.
Just when the weather bureau announces
that the lady storm will be this year’s
queen of winds and waves to embattle
the sun and seas,
she doesn’t come.
The moment comes when least
expected, but she won’t
even if you wait til eternity…
Instincts really rule us.
Whew! 3 laptops, 2 portable memory drives containing my 300 – gigabyte worth of music ripped, downloaded and copied from friends–something that I’ve painstakingly labored over for sooo many years, and all my pictures from 2002 to present suddenly gone…into the hands of burglars who ransacked our house. I only pray that the money from the laptop sale can feed a starving family or buy medicines for the ill, that my mp3 collection be used in a music business venture that can sustain a poor family. The pictures I can’t think of any use for.
Lessons learned: back up all you can (redundancy is key), don’t store laptops, gadgets, or any important stuff all in one place, don’t put the computer back-up files inside the computer bag.
This is the best time to own a new hot laptop. Good thing Torrent is here so I can start re-building my music library. And pictures I will from now on upload to the Net.
Whew! My mind is still cluttered. It’ll take time for me to survive this tragedy. Next practical thing to do: fix the door and buy another lock.
Haven’t had time to blog for so long a time. Work got the better of me, consuming all my energy, depleting my creative juices, leading to sustained moments of artistic un-productivity. Wasn’t able to write creative stuff, chief of them poetry, wasn’t able to get my hands dirty working on some abstract painting, hadn’t delivered a new speech for TM lately…Thank God my other love right now–photography became accessible by virtue of a new investment–a Canon 550D DSLR!
I vow from now on to resurrect my blog. To give updates on my exciting career, to awaken my literary sensitivity, and to document the preparations for my Hon and I’s biggest day 
This is my tribute of sorts to the great Ondoy tragedy that struck us exactly a year ago. How have we coped? Hope we are more prepared now, any time a big force of nature comes striking down at us again…
THE INNER DISASTER
“Only after disaster can we be resurrected.”
– Tyler Durden (Brad Pitt) in Fight Club, 1999
We need to feel the pain first,
go through a life-changing experience first,
for us to feel alive again.
Our existence as humans is marked by suffering:
disease, old age, death.
These are all terminal things
that we cannot prevent.
While we’re made to believe
that diseases are preventable,
such is not the case:
a disease will get you in your most vigilant moment—
just when you were sleeping,
you fall asleep, and you wake up
a different person and suddenly
you have cancer in your soul.
In a race against time, you will grow old
and the longer you stay on earth
the more bitter your experience becomes.
Death will be the final arbiter.
No matter how you evade Him
He will meet you
in your most desperate hour.
After you meet, disaster will have been realized.
Ahh, such is the feeling of being alive again!
Ronald Paw Hay Law, part-Chinese and mostly Filipino, is a born Piscean under the sheep zodiac from the Philippines, is a young struggling doctor torn between his profession-the curing science of Medicine and his passion-the healing art of the Humanities. He holds an administrative position in a big healthcare organization and on the side studies Masterals for Public Health. He seeks to conquer the world by influencing people with regards the wholistic aspect of medicine–nurturing and healing, not only the body, but the mind and soul as well. He loves to travel, read non-Medical books, write literary stuff, listen to any genre of music, watch art films, shoot anything (photography that is) that catches his fancy, and paint female forms. He would often be caught sipping his cup of black coffee (without sugar and cream), tinkering with his latest gadget, or staring into space to keep him sane.
